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Colton Hayneshas revealed he almost did not get one of the roles his fans know him best for.
“Jeff was the creator ofTeen Wolf, and he had indeed fought for me; I was grateful to him, and eager not to f— up the opportunity,” Haynes wrote in his memoir according toEW.
With his team making him feel as if “You will not work if you are yourself,” Haynes writes in his memoir that he tried to create a new persona to try to land jobs.
“I needed to suppress my affect, to make my personality match the way I looked — like a stupid, dumb jock — with just enough silly charm that people would still like me,” Haynes writes about the tools he employed.
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The actor previously opened up toPEOPLEabout how writing the memoir “nearly killed me.” Haynes' memoir dives into various sensitive topics like his overdose and suicide attempt, recovering from alcoholism, addiction and an eating disorder, and then overcoming childhood sexual abuse.
“I needed to rid myself of the things I’ve held onto for so long,” he told PEOPLE.
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While Haynes is excited to be part of the upcomingTeen Wolfreboot movie, he told PEOPLE last month the issues for gay actors in Hollywood remain.
If you or someone you know is considering suicide, please contact the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (8255), text “STRENGTH” to the Crisis Text Line at 741-741 orgo tosuicidepreventionlifeline.org.
If you or someone you know has been a victim of sexual abuse, text “STRENGTH” to the Crisis Text Line at 741-741 to be connected to a certified crisis counselor.
If you or someone you know is struggling with substance abuse, please contact the SAMHSA helpline at 1-800-662-HELP.
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source: people.com
