Photo: Madisson Hausburg/Instagram
In an emotionalInstagrampost on Tuesday, theSiesta Keystar, 28, opened up about her love for son Elliot alongside a black-and-white photo where she holds him and tearfully looks at him with husband Ish Soto.
“There is so little I remember from this past year…but I remember meeting you and holding you like it was yesterday. Your love was the strongest thing I have ever felt in my life. I will always love you with all of my heart, Tiny. I can’t wait to see you again someday. Happy first birthday Elliot Angel ❤️.”
Hausberg and her husband first shared theheartbreaking newsof her son’s stillbirth on Dec. 21, 2021.
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“Everyday I wake up to the agonizing reality that I will never again get to hold him or kiss him in this lifetime,” she continued the heart-wrenching post. “I am completely and utterly heartbroken. I love you, I miss you, my perfect little Elliot ❤️👼”
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“Seeing this negative result again…and again…re-breaks my heart all over,” she continued. “We got pregnant with Elliot on the first try, so this is incredibly difficult and confusing and frustrating. I really let myself get my hopes up this time. I feel utterly defeated.”
In a separate piece of text on the same Story, the reality television personality wrote, “Please refrain from telling me to ‘relax and just let it happen’ because 1. I promise I have already heard it 100000000 times.”
“2. Telling someone to relax doesn’t actually make them relax,” she continued. “It just makes them feel bad for not being relaxed on top of everything else. 3. That’s literally not how it works.”
source: people.com
