Photo: Brittani Boren Leach/Instagram
“3 years ago at 6:50 am our sweet Crew was born. Little did we know that we would only get 3 1/2 short months with him,” Brittani captionedan illustration of her family, which included Crew at the age he’d be today.
“I wish I could see him now, at 3 years old, to know what he looks like, or what his birthday table would look like this year, and to know what it feels like to have him curl up in my lap and wrap his arms around my neck.”
“I’m sure that Heaven is having the most beautiful celebration for him today, but I selfishly wish he was here instead.”
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Brittani and Jeff are also parents to sons Carter, Cooper, Cash, Cole and Cam, who was born just six days ago. Husband Jeff Leach is also dad to a teenage daughter, Sydney, from a previous relationship.
Brittani first shared a tribute to her son early on his birthday, writing, “3 years ago in the early morning I was headed to the hospital to birth this sweet boy.”
“His birthday was undoubtedly the most memorable and most painful, and looking back I’m so thankful for that,” she continued. “I’d take the pain over and over again just to have him here again. Happy 3rd Birthday my sweet Crew, I love you and I can’t wait to see you again. 💔”
On her Instagram Story, Brittani shared more moments from the day, showing a beautiful Blippi-themed birthday cake she’d gotten for Crew.
PHOTO: Brittani Boren Leach/InstagramPHOTO: Brittani Boren Leach/InstagramPHOTO: Brittani Boren Leach/Instagram
“I feel like if Crew was here, he would love Blippi like all my boys have,” she wrote. “So Blippi cake it is this year.”
Later, she shared a photo of Crew’s decorated gravesite, which had toys lined up along its base and birthday balloons and a banner attached to his gravestone.
“Happy 3rd birthday sweet boy 💙 ,” Brittani captioned the video.
In another video, Brittani, Jeff and the kids quietly sing “happy birthday” to Crew, with some of the boys leaning in to help blow out his candle.
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The couple welcomed sonCamon Thursday, Sept. 9, at 10:32 a.m, the sixth son for the 31-year-old former YouTuber.
source: people.com
